Snow Babies...

...Do not like hats.

Dear Onyx,

I must have forgotten to post this!

Better late than never right? :O!!?

Your Grandma did an amazing 37 week pregnancy photo shoot for us. Up there, in that photo, is you! All snuggled up! It's pretty hard to believe. 

It's been so long since I wrote you last! I have changed my mind on so many ideas I had on how I want to be your parent! All for the good, I promise! Your dad and I have learned SO MUCH! We took 12 pregnancy classes and met some nice friends there. We changed midwifes, but I bet you already knew that because when she checks your position, feeling around on my tummy (she is the one with icy cold fingers) you always kick/punch her away. Haha

Here are some things we have learned about you:

I have learned you are an intense meat lover and I have no idea where that came from. I only started regularly eating meat again since I became pregnant. You dance and dance when I eat it. That's well, kinda gross little dude, but I love you anyway.

You don't like being touched, at first it kinda hurt my feelings. I am not gonna lie. I realized though, that doesn't mean you don't like me, (which I did have a total crying breakdown over, but your dad calmed me down) that probably just means you will be independent! Good for you! Just no running away from me into the road or something like that. I'd probably have a heart attack! I promise to give you space and freedom as best I can though.

Along with not liking being touched you tend to smack away or hide from any hand that touches my belly. This leads me to believe you might have adopted your father's childhood pickiness. Well who better to have a fussy son than a fussy father? Karma sucks! Heehee. Did you know your dad used to freak out and cry every time he put socks on as a kid because he could feel the "linty balls" poking him? To this day he still wears his socks inside out because if it. I wont knock it though. I tried it a few weeks ago and, yeah, it feels preeeetty good!

Your bedroom is all set up and waiting for you. Even if you're not going to be sleeping in there at first, it was really important to me to have a room waiting for you. I am 5 days passed my "guess date" for you being born and still waiting little guy! Everybody is! I keep getting texts, messages and calls all the time asking if it was your big day! Nope. Still waiting on you love. You can come anytime now. Even tonight! Tomorrow morning! Lunch time! Dinner! As soon as possible? Please? Please? Pretty please?
Oh fine. No pressure... I guess.

We just really want to meet you and kiss your little face.
See you SOON????? You are 39 weeks old after all! :)

Love, your Mum.

It's Good To Be Back

Back to normal that is! 

For the last 9 months I went from too nauseous to write posts, so I posted pictures. (Tri 1)

Too tired to go many places or make many new things, so I took pictures of the life around me. (Tri 2)

Then finally, to so uncomfortably immobile that my blog took the back seat. (Tri 3)

It's amazing the weight a pregnancy veil puts over you. Your eye lids are heavy, even though all you do is sleep. 

Your mind feels like lead, and we all know lead can't think. Your body may only gain 35 pounds, but it might as well be 350 because doing anything is difficult physically not to mention emotionally and mentally.
...and just when you start getting used to it...

Suddenly labor pulls you in like a fishing lure you can not pull away from. 

Then a thousand of the most intense years of your life go by, 

(or what seems like 1000 years but is really only a few hours of hard labor) and suddenly you're light again. 

You feel like, like you! Like a you that you forgot existed!

 And look! This beautiful, wonderful, tiny person is here now and you are their world. 

Birth?

THAT WAS A TRIP.

Introducing My New Best Friend

Onyx Morel
was born October 28th at 10:07am

weighing 8 pounds 6 ounces and 21 inches long

I can hardly believe we did it!
More details to come, but for now I am going to soak up every little moment and get some sleep.

Going On Walks In The Cold

Okay, okay so we didn't find brussel sprouts on a walk, but they look pretty neat and are so tasty!

The Coral Collection

October Sky

Mushroom Hunting During a Downpour

This tree has been standing there, forever, watching over the forest. 

 

 

 Spine Mushroom. Pretty cool eh?

 

 I apologize for not being a woman of many words these last few posts. I have been avoiding a lot of battles and hiding myself, trying to build up strength and learning to trust my gut a lot more. In general I have just been talking less, observing more and waiting. I don't know what for... maybe a sword and shield, maybe an open door, maybe a boat going to an island so I can have some time to myself or maybe just pure bravery. 

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